June 11th
Everytime I start a post with “Well, today wasn’t anything special…” it always ends up being a sizeable post, but I don’t think that will be the case this time around.
I woke up at 5 AM this morning for whatever reason (after going to sleep at midnight), did some exercises, and ate some breakfast (which amounted to 2 peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with a banana). I sat around for about an hour and packed my bag while Luis rolled out of bed and got ready so he too could go to Managua. Him being as pinche or rather economical as me, we opted to walk to the bus stop instead of paying 10 cordobas a piece to take a taxi there. Luis was going to go to a different stop in Managua, so I parted ways with him about 8:30 for the microbus ride to Managua. The ride went by a lot faster than it did on the way to Chinandega for some reason. I don’t know why exactly, it could be because I’m more accustomed to sitting around completely mindless without anything to distract me from daydreaming (since bringing anything flashy like an Ipod is a bad idea on the bus, I’ve learned how to waste hours sitting and staring). But for whatever reason it was, it was uneventful, and I even got to see a huge volcano at the northern coast of lago whatever (consult your geography books – it’s the volcano to the north of the big lake which is situated immediately to the north of Managua). I arrived into Israel bus station just as the bus to Masatepe was leaving, so my trip home was that much faster without the wait.
I got home without incident and went home to find our maid, Argentina, and only her. None of the other volunteers from my group had made it back to Masatepe yet, so I laid in the hammock for a couple hours, laid in the bed for an hour, and walked around the town mindlessly. Now that I’ve gotten over the fear (that my host mom instilled in me) of drinking Nicaraguan milk, I headed to the grocery store where I bought and drank near a liter of milk, and bought a bag of crackers. Combined price you ask? Why a mere 75 cents for the two. I don’t really understand prices here, for some goods the prices are ridiculous (Snickers for example), for other things (Rum for example) the prices are insanely cheap. How about a happy medium?
I took another nap after gallivanting around the town before Jordan came over. We briefly talked about our experiences on our volunteer visits before she decided to head back home. The rest of the night consisted of me teaching William completely useless words in English (like polyamorous), and teaching him random useless words/phrases in German and Czech. I’ve got him to the point where he can’t tell what language a word comes from. How shameful of me.
An uneventful day for once (that can be reflected in a journal entry!)
June 12th
I slept really well last night and woke up refreshed as opposed how I normally wake up with somebody turning on the TV on taking a shower. Just to add to the stressless way to wake up, I did some exercises – what better way to start the day? I woke up relatively early (with regard to when I had to show up to Jordan’s house for a meeting), so I did exercises for around 3 hours to kill time. I’m still trying to figure out a way to kick my ass like I can in a gym. So far I’ve just resorted to cement blocks in a bucket, and lifting the bucket. I’m sure I’ll become more resourceful the longer that I’m here.
After breakfast, I headed over to Jordan’s to discuss with one of the language facilitators how my volunteer visit went. We all drew pictures to describe how our experience went – and my visit was completely different from everybody else’s. Everybody was worried about me visiting the guy in Chinandega, because nobody likes him. He knows this, I knew it, but we got along great. But back to topic à everybody drew pictures of all the beautiful things they saw and experienced, you know – the kind of Peace Corps stuff you read about. Me on the other hand…what did I draw you ask? Well, I drew pictures of all the food I ate, cable television, high speed internet, cheap prices, the supermarket, but then I doodled the discipline problems in the school I observed. Everybody enjoyed their visit in our group with the exception being Avi who spent most of his trip sick from some bad tomatoes. Don’t worry, he’s alive and well now.
After that meeting, I was kind of left disenchanted with the Peace Corps experience. We all discussed all the bad things that had gone on during our visits (in addition to the great points), but for some reason I had a low point. This revolves around my uncertaintly regarding my ability to teach high school students a topic I am still learning, and maintaining discipline in a class that doesn’t care. Additionally, I’m worried about being able to stay motivated and positive when my students are continually disinterested in what I have to talk about. That being said, I’m really looking forward to the opportunities I’ll have working in the community as oppose to in the classes. Outside of the class, people are more interested and engaged, if only because it’s not mandatory and there are no grades. Furthermore, I’m not restricted to teaching the curriculum, and will be able to branch out and do things I’m interested in. That being said, I’ve reached a crossroads. I’m unsure whether or not I’d prefer a city or a smaller community.
If I live in a city:
I’ll have a lot of the amenities that I had in the U.S., it will be more like life in the U.S. and less like a stereotypical ‘Peace Corps experience’. Nevertheless, there are more opportunities in cities (at least this is my perception), because there are more people, more youths, and more organizations to work with. However, therein lies the disadvantage to living in a city – more people. With more people, you lose your sense of community; you won’t have a close relationship with all the people in your community because life is more hectic and city-like. If you live in an apartment like the volunteer I visited did, you have no neighbors. I can definitely see some me encountering some obstacles integrating in the community where there are so many people.
If I live in a smaller community:
I’ll be able to meet many people in the community (if not all of them), and this will directly affect tons of related aspects of my next two years. Knowing all the people will yield free meals, better safety in the town, better trust among the community members, and everybody always says ‘hi’ to everybody in the streets. This is an aspect that is totally absent in a city. However, life in a small town brings several disadvantages. With a smaller community where most people know each other, I’ll be more prone to gossip. If I feel like going out to a bar a night and having a beer, people could see me there and I could be labeled a drunk. In turn, I’d lose trust with the community. Additionally, there are less people to work with, and potentially fewer opportunities to do something I’m really interested in with the community members/youths.
I just can’t decide. Initially, I was completely convinced that a city was for me, but now I’m not so sure. I have my program interview next week (my last interview before my site placement), and right now, I think I’m leaning towards telling our program director that I think I’d be better off in a city (even though I’m convinced they’ve already decided where I’m going). Basically what it boils down to is that I’d like to go somewhere where my work revolves around working more with the community as oppose to teaching. But hey, PC will tell me what I’m going to do, and that will be that. As strange as it is to say, I’m pretty sure they know me better than I do when it comes to deciding where they’re going to place me. They’re aware of my interests, strengths, weaknesses, counterparts, and also know what all the potential sites are.
Moving on…
The rest of the day, I just organized my life (it fits in a binder!), and headed over to the bank where I waited in a 47-person line to withdraw money. I still haven’t received my pin number for my debit card, so I had to resort to this method. I must have waited in line for an hour and 15 minutes since they only had 2 tellers working. When I finally got up there, I told her I wanted to withdraw money, and after a bunch of formalities, she asked me where I lived. Fortunately, I’ve become versed with how directions are given. So I told her my neighborhood, which number street I live on (first, second, third, etc), and then how many varas (this translates as ‘sticks’) that I live from the corner. It’s a totally different way of giving directions, but I strangely didn’t bat an eye and rattled out my paragraph-long address to her.
I was sporting quite an interesting ensemble as I was wearing khakis, a golf shirt, a bright yellow cycling hat, and sandals, but when have I fit into a crowd – I’m just expressing that inner Goggins. This yielded me being gawked at during my stroll through town today, but whatever; I’m a celebrity here anyway. With there being 5 white guys in the whole town, I kind of stand out anyway.
Jordan and I had a youth group meeting this afternoon that ended up being a youth-less group. So…we’ll have to do something about that in the future. Aside from all that, I had major nostalgia for my bikes. I was going so crazy that I hopped on his broken, barely standing bike and just sat on it while supporting myself on a wall. I just needed SOME feeling of a bicycle, something that my body would recognize to get my bicycle fix. Some day’s I’m just dying without a bike, but this too will pass (God I hope so).
June 13th
I woke up wicked early this morning (5:20 – gross) to get to Managua for training at 7:30 this morning. I had a hearty breakfast of huevos rancheros, bread, and my daily glass of milk, and then headed to the Jordan’s house so we could go catch the bus to Managua. We were walking to the stop as the bus came roaring down the street, and fortunately we were able to hop on. As luck would have it, Avi and Owen were on the bus that pulled up, so at least we were all together on our almost now habitual journey to Managua.
We were some of the first people to show up, so we were able to relax in the volunteer office and read/steal the Newsweek magazines that we get for free. Also we were able to use the volunteer computers/exploit the high speed internet that is absent in all our our training sites (the cyber’s in our towns are pretty mediocre). The office also has an ENORMOUS library with books that volunteers have already read available for free. It’s not even a book exchange! It’s like a free bookstore! I ended up grabbing the book Into The Wild (you might have seen the movie), and stealing around 7 Newsweek magazines. Last time I stole a bunch of Newsweek’s they all disappeared or I threw them away and never ended up reading them. But hey, I’m trying to stay on top of things. At least I’m world news savvy anyway. In fact, I just heard that they invented running water! Finally, the world can rid themselves of bucket baths.
Our training session involved an assessment of everybody’s volunteer visit to discuss things that went well, and things we took away from the visit. I already laid out in yesterday’s entry how I feel about the placement process now and won’t elaborate any further. Now I’m just sitting back and letting things happen. I’m resourceful and adaptive; I’ll make it work no matter where I am.
Since we were in the PC headquarters for our training sessions (this is a first), we needed to go somewhere to eat. However, PC just told us to bring money (75 cordobas) to buy lunch. Now, of course you all know what happened – economist Richard kicked in. Like hell I was going to spend 75 cords on lunch (even though they apparently gave us money for this). So what did ‘pinche’ Richard do? That’s right, I bought food at the store last night. Not just that – I bought wheat bread (100% integral! Whatever that means), and honey to go along with my peanut butter that I bought while I was in Chinandega. I’m an eating machine, so I made myself three amazing PB and Honey sandwiches and packed 4 bananas. PC brought us to this huge shopping mall in Managua that was like a ritzier version of Cherry Creek mall – it was disgusting. It was full of Americans too, fat ones, eating their McDonalds/Quiznos/Pizza Hut– even more disgusting. Most people spent a boatload for their meals, but not me! My whole decision to bring my lunch was subject to severe scrutiny from my host mom due to my cheapness. This in turn resulted in me getting in a huge argument about how me bringing my lunch was a million times better than eating the crappy food in the food court (if you’re wondering what food court is in Spanish, it’s ‘food court’), not to mention a whole lot cheaper.
(No transition) But back to the main theme for today – training. In addition to reflecting about our volunteer visit, we had a presentation about how to work with small businesses. Then in the afternoon, a small business from volunteer from Nica 41 (who has to be a just a little younger than you Gram), gave us a presentation about how to teach La Empresa Creativa to people outside of a school setting. They gave us a bunch of scenarios and how we intended to teach the given group, when we would teach them, what methods we would use, how gender roles could affect things, etc. This is basically what training breaks down every time we go. It’s generally the same thing with a slight variation/twist to keep things interesting/give us the idea that everything they’re telling us is new and different. Either way, we pushed through for another ‘successful’ (what an ambiguous term) training session.
After training, Peace Corps dumped us in front of UCA (a university in Managua) and told us to go home. However, little did we know that we couldn’t actually go directly home from where they left us. After much discussion and confusion, we found that we could make our way home via this other city that is near where we live (I’m making Peace Corps give me a 5 cord (about 25 cents) refund since I had to take an extra bus to get home.
However, we took a tiny break in San Marcos (the city we were left off in), and a group of us all hung out in the central park there and just relaxed/reflected on how training is going. It’s not that what we do during training is particularly difficult, but all of it combined with your entire world being in another language is just mentally exhausting. I’d say everyday I spend time reflecting about what I’m doing with my life, and I’m still trying to convince myself that I’m here.
No matter how vivid of a picture I try to paint, I can never quite convey how Peace Corps makes you feel at the end of a day – it’s something I’ve never felt before. It’s not that it’s bad – I love it. You really can’t go a day without working on something, be it Spanish (you’re always working on this), a project, a youth group, preparing a class, or doing some reading, you’ve always got something going on. It’s definitely a good experience for someone who can’t sit still.
June 14th
Today everybody was excited as we got to see the TEFL volunteers, and we got a ‘diversity charla’ at Volcan Masaya. Unfortunately, Peace Corps fooled us and made us undergo a formal-like charla (albeit in informal dress) before heading to the volcano, but that’s something I can live with. It was your standard diversity charla with the ‘who has done this’-type questions, but it was relatively painless.
After the charla though, we all headed to the volcano in our Peace Corps party bus. Douglas, the driver of the party bus, appeased us with his traditional blasting music which we enjoyed on the hour long ride to the volcano. Just to keep things Nicaraguan, we crammed almost every volunteer on the bus that was made for 20 (there are 37 of us). It made things a lot closer, helped us bond, and just helped us adapt to the Nicaraguan bus riding experiences. We’re just practicing – this is training after all.
We arrived in the park and took a brief tour of the museum (which included all the exhibits that you were never interested in when you were a child). They gave us 20 minutes for the exhibit, which was more than enough. After another break (and handing out of Oreos – a Peace Corps Nicaragua standard), we all piled in the bus for the ever-so-slow trip up to the top of the volcano.
Upon our arrival I was disappointed to find out that you can’t actually look into the volcano. It’s not super steep, so you can’t just look into the volcano and see lava like I was hoping. There is just a huge sulfur cloud that billows out of the volcano indefinitely – and it shows up in every picture. We all palled around for the next 2 hours, took picture of the huge hole in the mountain, and found a point on the volcano (windy point) where we all just sat around an talked for an hour. The land surrounding the volcano is lush and green, which provided a nice backdrop for our day to just hang out.
Peace Corps, being the generous folk they are, told us they’d drive us back to our training sites. So we all piled back into the van and headed back to our respective cities. Unfortunately for all of us, we were stuck behind a school bus most of the way that was carrying just about every object you could imagine on top of it (including the front of a school bus). To make matters worse, terrible Nicaraguan drivers continually cut us off, which are all too common on the roads here. While it took a tad longer to get home, it provided us with more time to socialize with each other – particularly the TEFL volunteers, which we rarely see (well, as much as we want to see).
After chilling out at home for a bit, eating lunch (at 3 PM), I did some exercises then headed over to the house of Perry, a TEFL volunteer in Masatepe. My initial game plan was to hang around for 3 hours…but as I have learned time and time again in Nicaragua, plans are worthless. We all had a good time (roughly 24 of us showed up), and I definitely got home at 11:30 PM. The time was extended a bit as I felt obliged to walk a group of my friends to the bus stop so they could get back to their respective cities. Everybody was worried about me, but I’d rather be responsible for myself getting the crap beat our of me as oppose to having somebody get assaulted as a result of my neglect/laziness. Fortunately (but not surprisingly), I got home without incident, and have to get to sleep soon as I’m waking up early tomorrow.
Oh the life of the Peace Corps.